Reflections

Satisfaction

• By fannieb
• January 31, 2016
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Satisfied.  This is the emotion I felt as I came to from a deep, restorative sleep this morning. I am waking up alone yet I feel satisfied. The word satisfied might be a bit deceptive here because there are so many things I want to accomplish still, but I do have this sensation of satisfaction or perhaps it’s a feeling of contentment.

It’s Saturday morning and I don’t have to go to work; this is a big assist in my increased level of satisfaction. I have been noticing how tired I feel at work – it’s definitely something that pulls my physical energy level down. But the satisfaction I feel, I think, has less to do with it not being a workday and more to do with all that is going right in my life, all the things that seem to be coming together in service of reaching my goals.

My goal of not waking up alone, but with a man who is smart, sensitive, funny, emotionally sound and available, caring, honest, sexy, attractive, healthy, ambitious, financially stable, open-minded, courageous, and attentive.

My goal of being able to retire from my project management career by the end of May 2016 having built a coaching practice that fully replaces my paycheck and benefits and that continues to grow to support me financially and spiritually.

My goal of making deep connections with not only my special man, but with other people too and in these connections finding peace and harmony and a sense of well-being.

My goal of living in France, of becoming fluent in French, and of making friends and meeting interesting people there. Expanding my horizons and becoming less self-centered, less America centric and experiencing and embracing a beautiful new culture and country.

These are the things I aspire to.  These are the things that my efforts seem to be attracting to me. And my thoughts go to the idea that other exciting and desirable things I’ve yet to think of are speeding their way into my life to become a reality. And this too fosters the sense of satisfaction and contentment I feel. It reminds me of how I felt when my cat would lie on my lap completely relaxed and unafraid and purr as I stroked her back, as I cupped her small head in my hand. This is the feeling of love, of connection, of wonderment. Oh, what a feeling!

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