Reflections

I’ll get there when I get there

• By fannieb
• July 24, 2016
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My biggest motivator is the incessant slipping away of time that seems to be increasing in speed. It makes me more deliberate in what I choose to do. And it is great because it sets me up for achieving my life’s work, but if I’m not careful and forget that time is an illusion thoughts around the slippery nature of time can create anxiety, self-doubt, and feelings of lack for me. The fact of the matter is that time is endless. I am grateful for it and know that whatever I accomplish in this lifetime is perfect. What is left undone is perfect too.

Yesterday morning I was running late for my oil change appointment. As I drove closer to the dealership the minutes ticked up on the digital clock on my dashboard and this sinking feeling that I would be 5 minutes late filled me. At this point I had a choice and I chose to stay calm by telling myself “I’ll get there when I get there. There is no rush.” An instant sense of relief replaced my anxiety. As a result I did not step on the gas and race to try to arrive at exactly 9:15. This gave me the space I needed to accept what was, what would be, and experience underlying calm.

Two weeks ago I had a similar experience going to my mammogram appointment. However that time I allowed myself to be pulled in to the anxiety, and rushed and obsessed over being a few minutes late. My experience and the tone of that day were anything but calm. So yesterday, because I did not want a repeat of that other day, I accepted the situation. “I’ll get there when I get there.” What calmed me further was considering the worst thing they could do which would have been to turn me away, an extreme response for arriving at 9:20 instead of 9:15.

I can apply this lesson to my bigger goals, like the goal of being a prosperous entrepreneur and leaving my job. I have set a new date to leave my job. I will work steadily, diligently, and calmly to achieve this date, reassured that things take time to align, that God’s delay is not His denial, and that cool heads prevail.

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