Reflections

Getting Closer to “The Answer”

• By fannieb
• July 17, 2016
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It’s Sunday morning and I’m feeling a little stuck. I just want to get it (my career, my life-purpose, who I’m called to serve) right! As I question where I’m headed I unwittingly glance up at my parents’ wedding portrait and into their faces, hopeful for their futures (now gone).  Their eyes seem to be pleading to me, Live you dreams!  Change the world!  Share your gifts!  I’m suddenly overcome with emotion and tears are streaming down my face.

This happened in the midst of searching for my target market for speaking gigs. I googled spiritual conferences and I was led to the Christian Leadership Alliance website and uncovered a world unknown to me.  A world with potential for my message and my offerings.  Could it be that I’m meant to work with nonprofit leaders who work in organizations that minister to people – churches, missions, religious schools?

Are these tears of joy pried loose by a forming vision of where I can make the highest impact?  Or are they tears of fear caused by thoughts that I might let my parents down on their posthumous plea by getting close to fully living my life purpose, but missing it by a hair? I don’t know the answer, but I feel like Richard Kimball, the main character in the movie The Fugitive, searching for the answer that will see him free.  He was trying to solve a puzzle and so am I.  And I just find a big clue!

Photo Credit: Gerwin Sturm