Reflections

Aura

• By fannieb
• August 29, 2015
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There is something noticeably different about me recently that not only I am picking up on, but so are others even when I come into contact with them only briefly. Other people, even strangers, are opening up to me in ways that I wouldn’t expect.

Yesterday morning at work a woman started a conversation with me. I run in to her in the break room and restroom about twice a week and we speak to say hello, but that is about it. But yesterday she started talking to me about a comic convention that she was going to go to this weekend. Then she proceeded to tell me how she dresses up in character for these events. Perhaps she was more outgoing yesterday because of her excitement for her weekend plans, but I can’t help but feel that some of her openness in telling me, an almost complete stranger, that she dresses up in a Star Wars costume had to do with a new, brighter aura I’m projecting to the world. My zest for life and my excitement about my future is beaming through and others are picking up on this energy.

I love it! And I feel grateful for it. But I also have noticed that this carries with it a greater demand on my time. A casual conversation in the ladies room isn’t want I’m talking about here; it’s when people gravitate to my cube at work and chat at length, eating away at time I’d planned to do other things with, then I start to feel a bit drained.

So I know that as I evolve I am going to have to get good at setting and tactfully maintaining healthy boundaries. This might be challenging for me. I don’t want to hurt people’s feelings by being terse with them. Hmmm, what is the underlying thought here? I want to be liked and accepted and I won’t be if I limit access to my time by maintaining certain boundaries? At the root of this thought might be the idea that I’m not good enough to be liked without giving more of myself and time than I’m willing. This is something that I definitely will need to delve into more in order to protect this new and exhilarating energy so that I don’t get burnt out and lose the positivity I have cultivated thus far.

Photo Credit: Loannis Kontomitros